Jane's

2011-08-04T12:16:00.002+08:00

Just dont quit when the going gets tough. I wish that you'll be with me in this.

CAN SOMEONE JUST LEAN RIGHT DOWN INTO MY FACE AND SCREAM AT ME TO WAKE UP?

the pain will only be temporary, i just know.

2011-07-07T03:01:00.004+08:00

its been a long while! i know right.

seriously, i have nothing much to blog about. ive been in a trancelike state for 2 or maybe 3 weeks? see? the fact that i cannot remember how long ago since that fateful day (wait...was there even one to begin with) shows that im indeed in a trance! yes, im upset. yes, it hurts like crap. sad but true, he sucks and i still love him.

life goes on, right? after working for a month at Udders, i finally got my first paycheck! A meagre amount of $285! whatthefuck right? On the other hand, I find it pleasantly comforting to be working with this bunch of insane (friendly nonetheless) bitches.

Apart from work, I sleep, read, run, swim, club and watch movies. Such is life, for me. If you think that's pathetic, i'd like to see how interesting yours can be ;)

xoxo
to those reading this!

2011-02-01T17:04:00.002+08:00

the whole in my pocket is never gonna be patched back. almost every other day i will incur unnecessary expenses. suay max.

on hindsight, i cant get any suay-er than this.
hopefully things will be muchhhhhh better after cny!

2011-01-19T01:00:00.003+08:00

silence is what i feared most. it doesn't mean consent; it means BLANK. i don't have the psychic power to mind-read, especially of an airhead.

i thot i was near depression, then again thats a word we often overuse. paranoid, dissatisfied, worse of all, losing that little faith that holds everything together. if only you could stop taking things to the limit, you extremist.

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2010-12-03T00:07:00.002+08:00

wonder how a snowstorm looks like..

and omgosh, pls do not delay/cancel my flights.. cos i just realised MY CRAPPY INSURANCE DOESNT COVER THAT. shyt.
that being said, the trains to copen better not be disrupted too. sigh. i hate having to think about all these unexpected circumstances.

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2010-11-28T05:14:00.002+08:00

just blogging to kill time.

dublin-london trip was filled with virgin experiences. It was my first time...

1) in dublin and london, of cos.
2) traveling alone for 3d2n in dublin.
3) flying alone, duh, but somehow i had the privilege to the first-row seats.
4) watching Arsenal-Spurs at Emirates stadium.
5) meeting Tierry Henry.
6) watching ATP with Federer playing against Ferrer.
7) watching Les Miserables which I must say, was an awesome musical.

With little resources and time left, i didnt really shop much this time round. then again, everyone's talking bout post-xmas sale in london! 5 more weeks, and i will be there again wheeeheee ((:

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figured that short hair suits me better.

madimy

2010-11-13T22:42:00.002+08:00

Today marks the end of the 2-week travel with my parents.

As I accompanied them to the railway station early this morning, it felt like the typical farewell scene. Mom hugged me just before boarding the train, and at that moment, I was so gonna cry. Well, I managed to hold back my tears, waved with a smile, and watched the train leave till it was out of sight.

The streets were so empty. Instead of taking the bus, I decided to walk home. DAMN EMO CAN. It took me an hour to get back, which was exactly the duration to get to the airport. Dad msged me(:
Walked past mom and dad's favorite apple tree. It reminded of that particular day when dad tried to use a stick to shake the branch, while mom inverted the umbrella in her attempt to catch those falling apples. Hmm, I think I have pictures for that.

I'm home now, all alone. My parents had been here for a week, and they prepared every single meal for me. For the first time in my life, my mom cooked me rice with 3dishes and 1soup (san cai yi tang). And also for the very first time, dad decided to help out in the kitchen. Even though the meals were fairly simple, they tasted really awesome.

I wish they could stay longer. But I know the lil princess back home needs them more than I do. Moreover, it's brother's 25th and grandpop's 91st birthday tmr. Naise.
Still, I'm glad mom and dad came. Its 2 weeks of fun and love that I'll never forget.

mom and dad i miss you

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2010-11-06T04:18:00.002+08:00

don't make me walk when i want to flyyyy. -g.doyla

time to say goodbye to the swiss alps, and hello eiffel tower (: life's never been better than this.

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2010-10-25T03:59:00.002+08:00

OMGOSH i had diarrhoea for a few days already! :[[[[
in my attempt to identify the cause, here are the possibilities..

1) the mozzarella cheese that tasted good but it could be really moldy moldy.
2) d&d (dinner and drinks) at jerry's. my stummy just couldnt take alcohol anymore.
3) apple pie w vanilla ice cream oh yums.
4) chocs? hmm unlikely.
5) exams! HAHAHA.
6) im depressed.

sigh. diarrhoea is cool what; it makes me skinnier LOL. however it comes in a package - the awfully bad mood that goes together, like traffic and weather.
oh btw, it snowed on the 20.10.2010. just so you know.

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2010-10-08T22:17:00.002+08:00

ive something against girls who are bitchy and whiny.

ughh. lousy mood day 2.

HELLO LENIN.

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2010-10-03T01:45:00.003+08:00

it's october, my friends.

how time flies. i've been here for almost one-and-a-half months. life's been simple and it only revolves around two things - travels and assignments. today, for a change, i'm doing none of these. i can sit back, relax a little and catch up with people ive missed.

i wonder how grandpop is doing. i wonder how much lil kyla has grown. there are certain things that you have to be there to find out for yourself..which is why i constantly ask myself if the exchange came at the wrong time. it's all about timing, remember?

if ive offended you somehow, i'm sorry. don't expect me to read between the lines/translate or whatsoever, cause im not capable of doing so.

PS. Jane is going to Switzerland and Paris with mom & dad!

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2010-09-29T04:07:00.002+08:00

I SET A NEW GOAL TODAY AND IM GONNA BE REALLY DETERMINED THIS TIME.

hahah.

that is...

TO STOP BUYING RANDOM STUFF LIKE CLOTHES AND MORE CLOTHES, RINGS AND MORE RINGS, SHOES AND MORE SHOES all because of.. CHANEL 2.55 - TIMELESS CLASSIC! caviar leather, silver hardware. i havent decide on the size though. maxi or jumbo?

okays that being said, time to SAVE SAVE SAVEEEEEEE!

if i dont see you online, can you drop me an email pretty please?

next stop... POLAND!

<3

2010-09-15T04:15:00.003+08:00

seriously, its not easy to blog about things that i really wanna say becos of these restrictions -

i dont wanna offend someone;
i dont like people questioning me bout stuff i wrote;
i dont wanna expose the emo-nemo side of me.

so recently, i decided to keep them in mails. would you write to me if i asked?

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on to the happier stuff!

mom and dad are gonna fly over in nov, followed by jenric and yogi in dec. glad that you guys managed to sort out the airtickets so promptly (:

just had a whole week of fun with iris!

intl sittning this friday. all for the experience, and the meal better be good.

crayfish party this saturday.

off to Budapest > Vienna > Prague this sunday!

found my new favourite cake (:

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2010-09-06T18:01:00.002+08:00

have a little faith.

gimme the wings to soar.

the chosen one.

..

...

..

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if only i could do the things i wanna do..
i want them all over me..
to chase the goals in life..
and also, as a reminder of my existence..
do you share the same thots too?

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Lund.

2010-08-29T22:49:00.004+08:00

welcome to the land of absolut vodka!

we visited IKEA yesterday and it wasnt as cheap as i thought. 11sgd for 15meatballs on saturdays, when it costs only 3sgd for 8meatballs on weekdays. then again, it costs 10sgd to get there and back. so i say, it's not worth it.

top right is a picture of Ostra Torn, my humble abode for the next 5 months. btw.

awesome isnt it?

Air tix, transfers, lodging for 12 days in eastern europe - i've got everything all planned. Seriously i don't know why you guys are still procrastinating. Is it really that hard to take leave?? =(

the cold weather is making me hungry again.

the S word

2010-08-26T04:54:00.003+08:00

back home, people always mix up Sembawang and Serangoon.

and now, people mix up Sweden and Switzerland.

Sheesh.

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do it. the swedish way.

2010-08-24T02:23:00.003+08:00

Day 1 in Lund was pretty much what i had anticipated - shagged to the max [STTM]. It was arrival day for all international students as such, we had to queue for almost everything. On top of that, factors like the 12hour flight, airport transfer, 2x freaking heavy luggage and continuous rain further contributed to my STTM experience.

After checking in to the Ikea-like apartment, i showered and hit the sack. Here i would like to thank NANI! for cleaning up the house, i reallyyyyyyy appreciate it :D

In just a week, we attended swedish classes, wandered around Lund, bought our bikes, tried x-stor kebab, visited Malmo, checked out prices at different supermarkets and inevitably piled up our war supplies. In short, we spent A LOT.

Speaking of Malmo, there was some sorta festival going on so yeah, that was cool. food wise, it was awesome; just not much of shopping since most, or almost all shops are closed on sundays.

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some facts about swedes:

1) they dont pay for their education. they got paid to study instead.
2) they are friendly and extremely helpful; they speak really good english btw. (fact that they understand us better than the americans)
3) most people in Lund cycle. its hard to find obese people. furthermore, its eco-friendly.
4) they are blessed with good genes - almost everyone is beautiful.
5) they have cute recyling machines in their supermarkets. good job.
6) sweden is the city of Ideas.

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What can i say? it sucks to be the minority. even though Lund is filled with friends of the world, the europeans tend to click better among themselves than to mingle with us, chinese people. it's really hard to break into their clique, then again, i never really tried. socialising has never been my forte, and i never believe that true friendship could be forged in a span of.. 4 months? so, is it really worth the effort getting to know hi-bye friends who will disappear from your life once you leave this place? okay, im just being skeptical. whatever.

i dont know. i admit, i dont befriend someone for the sake of befriending someone. in that sense, im selective. i dont care if you have 1000 friends when i only have 10, or less. my point is, its not about the number of friends you have, but the kind of friends you have.

is it really impossible to remain as friends once you break up with someone? what if your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend is also your bestest friend?

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i.have.to.eat.less.
good job for not touching the chips and beer at the gathering.

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2010-08-12T15:15:00.002+08:00

leaving in 4 days time! i cant wait to go - the 3-week stopover in Singapore is a lil too long hahaha. i actually blogged about the entire US experience but felt that there wasnt a need to share, so i wont. i havent been eating much ever since i got back, which proves that i can survive without bakchormee, charkuaytiao, rotiprata, laksa etc. i'll probably miss my niece most, since she's like the cutest thing on earth. most importantly, im always falling asleep before her. (:

did i ever mention about the maid in the house? just cant get used to having someone foreign walking in and out of my hse. oh, and the hierarchy system. hahah my dad being Big Sir and bro being Small Sir; my mom being Big Mdm, sis in law being Mdm and me?? I'm MISSY. whatever la. i still wash my own plates.

i should say, seeing the world and meeting people have really changed my mindset quite a fair bit. i ve a clearer picture of what i want in life and I SHOULD START SETTING MY PRIORITIES RIGHT. i wouldnt say i've grown to be more independent, but i dare say, im street smart :D last but not least, and perhaps the most amazing thing - my tolerance level has shot up.. to infinity and beyond!

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2010-07-23T15:05:00.002+08:00

its 23th july, friday 00:05hours.
current city: San Francisco
will be at the airport in exactly 24hours time!

i will remind myself to blog about SF. probably the best city so far.
gotta pack the luggage (for the very last time!) and sleep.
oh, gonna blog about all the transfers too. STTM.

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2010-07-19T02:36:00.003+08:00

man oh man, i lost count of the days just because and only because, LAS VEGAS is da bomb! it's so awesome (other than the weather - freaking hot like almost 40degrees or sth).

i wish i could upload some pics to show you all the majestic looking stuff along the strip (the different casinos and oh, hot babes). we watched variety shows at the theatres when we didnt have $$ to eat proper meals - all for the sake of EXPERIENCE. and i figured we were pretty generous in tipping others hahaha.

okay, i didnt mention the 4 days in NYC.
mad rush.
we had so little sleep cos each night, we gotta make plans for the next day.
we almost gave up on niagara falls, cos we didnt manage to book the tour in time. i'll never the night which the 3 of us sat at the steps in front of the main door, hopped from sites to sites just to arrange for niagara. well, it was all worth it. you gotta see to believe!

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2010-07-07T12:53:00.002+08:00

day #55

its the last week of work. err..it feels weird though. as much as i hate the job, i cant bear to leave KD. for some reasons.

anyway, 2 weeks ago we went virginia beach. just trying to keep track of where ive been and what ive been up to.

last week we were at williamsburg prime outlets.
i spent like USD500++ that day (:
i bet i combed more stores than the rest of them who went.
shopping is surely the activity i enjoy best. one that i'll have enough stamina for.
cant wait to share w everyone my loot!

AEROPOSTALE is killing me. each and every week at VCC, this store manages to take away some of my money. i dont dare imagine how much ive spent in that store already. okay i admit, im a fan of aeropostale. if only i see abercrombie.

world cup.
everything's gg as expected. Off tmr to catch germany vs spain! surely gonna be excitingggggg wheees
go oranje!!

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2010-06-29T13:23:00.003+08:00

day #47

im damn fking pissed today! UGHHHH.
i cursed everything and everyone, including myself. whatthefuck am i thinking??! whatthefuck is wrong with me?!
i said NO to cinnamon!

just cant find enough happy thots to make up for all the unhappiness ive felt today.
still, i'll try!

1. the rain that was so timely! RIGHT AFTER LUNCH BREAK.
2. the guy who said 'Hiii Jannneeeeeeee, my love' thanks even though it was a purely for fun.
3. the lady who smiled and gave the thumbs-up when i said 'im talking to myself again' . at least, someone bothered to respond.
4. the 3 guys who stopped by for a chat and helped me kill time. thanks.
5. my babe.

i just wanna go home now.

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2010-06-18T23:50:00.005+08:00

day #37

for the first time in my life, i had to cook for 14 people. luckily, chin was there to do most of the work haha. we cooked for the pinoys who are leaving us/KD this sunday. limited by the pots&pans, sauces&spices and whatnots, we did potato salad, ginger chicken, egg,onion&ham omelette and mixed vegie with diced chicken.
it was the best meal here, so far.

so in return, they cooked for us the next day. pinoys specialties - adobo and sinigang. how sweet of them. (:
so gonna miss . . .
marben and romeo from the games dept, for the joy they injected into our lives;
kaye and jezzie, my roommates who gave us free food all the time;
karlo! who never fails to bully me;
and the rest.. for everythinggggg (:

pmsy. shud i change dept or not?

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2010-06-14T22:52:00.002+08:00

day #32

alright alright. it's been a month. how time flies! and thats because we've been working like dogs. looking on the bright side, we befriended some nice people! Osama from Jordon, Vincent from China, Ivan from China, Semih from Turkey, Jane and Liliya from Ukraine, Courtney, Rodney and Justin from USA (:

down to the serious stuff once again, im gaining weight. all thanks to the great chefs (Cristal, Dawn and Chin) who never fail to overestimate our consumption capacities; the cheap and irresistible KK (CINNAMONSTER) donuts which are always available at the staff canteen; grocery shopping every mon, wed and fri at Walmart gives us no chance to empty our fridge and treasure stash; dearest pinoy and thai friends at the park who feed us with Dipping Dots, pizzas, chicken tenders and oh-so-damn-good funnel cakes.

dearest kyla jade lee is a week old already! wonder how everyone's coping with the additions to the family - a princess and a domestic helper, okay, maid.

on a side note, i came up with a name for my son already (if i have one in the future) hahah. Keeyan! it's like Ryan with a K instead. whaddayathink?

So close yet so far. why do i even bother working towards something that's out of my reach? don't ask if i like it. i dunno either. it's like a love-hate relationship, you know.

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2010-06-07T20:22:00.003+08:00

day #25

the bread here tastes good.

okay yesterday was my first day off. went to the park with chin to do the rides and lemme introduce 2 of the coolest rollercoasters/rides that we have at Kings Dominion!

the latest addition to the park.. intimidator 305!

height - 305 feet.

descends at 300feet at 85degree angle.

length - 5100 foot long.

speed - 94miles per hour.

total time taken to complete the ride - 3 mins.

6 air time humps.

next.. is the Dominator.

just look at the way the tracks twist and turn.

awesome.

well, the scariest shit of all is the Drop Tower aka london bridge is falling down. airtime - 6 secs?

off to work.

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2010-06-05T13:24:00.002+08:00

day #23

work. work. and work.
working in a fun place is not fun at all.
its coming close to 3 weeks and i havent been on any rides yet!!

things are getting better. i mean, we are getting to know the others better, cooking better food and stuff. heh.

results were out. cap dropped. oh well. not as bad as what i'd have thought. im okay. (:

new addition to the family - kyla jade lee! my niece arrived on the 3rd june, just 4 hours before her grandfather's birthday. nice.
a pity i wont be with her for the next 1.5 months =(

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2010-05-28T01:33:00.002+08:00

day #15

32hours in 3 days. starting tmr, im going full time. park's gonna be opened daily and i gotta work at least 40hours a week.

my next planned trip - WILLIAMSBURG PRIME OUTLETS. the thot of it already makes me excited! (: all i need now is CASH. time for capital accumulation.

bought 2 pairs of shades from fossil yesterday! just cause i couldnt decide between the 2. heh. dad said there's never too many or too much. you can always give always if you want to. that makes sense. in short, buy first, think later.

been video conferencing with my mom and dad these days! thats the coolest thing that ive ever done with my parents man. mom is still in St Louis, Maryland, but she doesnt want me to visit her. instead, she told me to save up for shopping. Awesome. (:

cabbed up to Washington DC on mon. so many museums, and so many memorial sites that we couldnt complete even in 2 full days. on average, we spent like an hour in each museum cause there were just so many interesting things to see! not the kinda museums you see in singapore lah please. (:

down to the serious stuff.

im running out of cash.
im home sick cause i havent done enough shopping to distract myself.
sticky. is the word. something needs to be done but howwwwwwwwww.

2010-05-23T12:30:00.001+08:00

im tired, shagged tothemax and disappointed.

2010-05-21T15:17:00.002+08:00

#08 counting the days . . .

it's getting warmer! oh no, here comes summer. im so not pleased that you've arrived.

so i was invited for lunch with this group of pinoys - my roommates and co - and we gathered in the forest! these people can really cook and they are barely 19. im so going for cooking lessons when i return! dead serious bout it (;

im having a pinoy guy and a prc in my room tonight.
not on my bed of cos!

goodnight.
there's work tmr.

2010-05-20T22:25:00.002+08:00

day #07

birthday drinks last night.
we had 3 birthday girls yesterday! (:
everybody knows how much i talk when i drink (; and i found out bout the dirty lil things that are going on here!
how scandalous and open can these pinoys get omggg.
in short, they are just too young la huh.

*(damn disturbed now cos the prc couple is above me. on the top of the double decker bed luh. pls oh pls, dont rock the bed so hard)

okays, 36hours of birthday celeb.
it began at 12mn SG time. and i was in NY then (: thanks to JQ and HJ (:
pics later!
i <3 NY.

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2010-05-18T04:44:00.002+08:00

#05

its been drizzling since last night. im not complaining bout the weather partly bcos i can imagine how humid and sticky i'd be in sg, so yep, im loving it here! even when the wind blows!

the park opens only on fri, sat and sun for now. so i had my first training with John Moody today! he's younger (but not wiser hahahaha) than me, and he's gonna be my supervisor.
collected my uniform! i shud post some pics soon.

FREE LUNCH.
its like free flow of burgers and hotdogs. i had fun making my own burger (:

got to know FRIENDS OF JAMAICA.
one step closer to Usain Bolt (:

free internet sms chat with daddy yesterday!
(:

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2010-05-17T04:56:00.002+08:00

day #04 (sg time)

im missing home, and the local food.
i duno if im suffering from jet lag, because i dont exactly know what it means, or how am i suppose to feel. Hah.
it took me 1.5 days to get here -4 flights, 3 transits, and 1 transfer. shagged max.

virginia is a quiet town, i guess. i havent really meet many people. maybe because kings dominion is a theme park on its own, with nothing in the vicinity except 7-11 and BK.

my roommates are from the phillipines. nice people. they cook for the other phillipinos. but they dine in my room. and they dont clean up. the ants here are fat, and damn black.

orientation today.
1st shopping trip tmr.
maybe new york on tues.

time for a nap now. (:

2010-05-08T15:13:00.002+08:00

exams over! unfortunately, im down with some horrible illness which cost me 40bucks for consultation, on top of that, another 28bucks for a flu jab that i was psychoed to have. and just before i left the room, DEAR DOC wished that i'd freeze to death in sweden. how sweet.

irritables aside, im glad to know some friends who really care for me (:
so this week and next will be packed with meetups and celebs (:

on a side note, im damn efficient la (:
OSP loan applied.
flu jab taken.
visa done.
confinement food settled.

(: (:

cant wait to fly!

2010-04-13T09:54:00.002+08:00

dear friends,

zero tolerance, is all i have now.

especially so when im in school. that im not sorry.

i love-hate you,
jane

2010-04-04T21:26:00.002+08:00

Back from malacca!

sadly, i forgot to bring the camera. SIGHHHH.

love the place. love the food. love the people.

Sanjit.

A' famosa steeper-than-45-degrees slide.

Durian chendol.

Emperor, park-at-ur-own-risk carpark.

2010-03-30T12:04:00.003+08:00

"Singapore is like a 6 star hotel. In this hotel, the elite are either managers or guests. The managers want to retain the hotel's 6 star status and attract foreign guests who will pay the expensive room rates. You don't need three guesses to guess who the managers are. The elite locals on the other hand enjoy the good facilities and can afford the expensive room rates. However they are guests with no ownership and have no desire to contribute to the running of hotel apart from paying high room rates. Both the foreigners and local elites use our country as a good place to make money but when it becomes uncomfortable, they move out. The rest of us are the worker bees: chamber maids, waiters etc. We work hard for our children and dream they will become either managers or the guests to the hotel. This hotel although a good one is home to no one. There is no soul of a nation in a hotel."

i quote an opposition party

2010-03-25T13:28:00.002+08:00

yet another depressing week, just managed to scrape through the f*ckass stats assignment only to realise that mkting report is due in a couple of days time. sheeeshhhhh i cant imagine the amount of stuff i gotta plough through this weekend, and thats because imma responsible groupmate wahahahah.

cause jellyfish have names, mine's gonna be Irukandji! smallest yet deadliest. woots, go wiki it!

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2010-03-04T21:26:00.002+08:00

HOORAYS after todays paper, i could sense the FAT ZERO coming my way. i hope my fellow module-mates will bring home an egg too wahahaha :D GOOD THINGS MUST SHARE.

i miss you so in my lalaland (:

2010-02-27T12:04:00.003+08:00

we went on a Tiger Beer tour yesterday!
for $10.70, you get to enjoy free flow of Tiger/Heineken and also samples of others like ABC, Anchor, Barons etc..
however, it's located right at the corner of singapore, last exit of AYE(tuas), just before 2nd link.
and i suppose you dont drive to drink right?? (:

jellyfish and friends

2010-02-25T20:38:00.006+08:00

i didnt ask. that doesnt mean i didnt know. or didnt care.

well, im a jellyfish.
cute one i hope.

kukuchew's.

2010-02-22T11:37:00.002+08:00

butterflies in the stomach!

and thanks to friendly mail, im no longer a string of numbers. email me at jane.lee@nus.edu.sg (:

2010-02-18T13:29:00.004+08:00

BEST CNY AND WORST RECESS WEEK EVER.

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2010-02-10T22:05:00.001+08:00

if we are in different worlds, I hope yours is better than mine.

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2010-02-10T19:34:00.000+08:00

sorryyy mr yeo, that i stood you up. pls do not be pissed anymoreeeee.

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2010-02-06T00:11:00.000+08:00

there is never enough t_____ to begin with.

2010-02-01T23:13:00.002+08:00

bah. assignments and project proposal deadlines are nearing and strangely, Ive been blogging pretty consistently these days. I wonder why.

I was in school for 14 hours today! let me break it down:

3 lectures - 6 hours
1 tutorial - 2 hours
eat/slack/chat - 3 hours
stomachache - fking 1 hour gone just like that
mug in lib - 2 hours!

-tygur!

2010-02-01T00:11:00.001+08:00

half. to begin with? or what's left?

when someone you love was hurting, it cut you right to the bone too.
(that is, if only you realised)

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2010-01-29T20:36:00.001+08:00

2x

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2010-01-25T23:04:00.003+08:00

I MUST BE CRAZEE when I chose computing over other modules for my GEM. it isnt sth I'd be interested in, but that doesnt matter anymore..cause I just have to score! (:

I AM REALLY MAD to pack 4x 2-hour of lessons back to back every monday. not too sure for the better or worse, lec actually begins at 8a.m. its been 3 weeks and i dont think i will ever get used to such horrible routine. on a side note, i havent skipped class yet! pat on the back for that. (:

IVE BEEN SILLY to assume compensation theory works for everyone. What is logically to me doesnt seem so to you, or anyone.

that's it. im tired. im..out.

2010-01-23T21:01:00.002+08:00

chinatowning is a must before CNY. there's so much to see/eat/shop. (: and my mom is always getting the kids to play mahjong. what kinda mother is she right? hahah.

it feels good when someone you know for years confide in you, like finally. i dont think it was easy for him to open up..but im glad he did. then again, i hate getting caught in awkward situation. bahhh.

2010-01-18T20:02:00.003+08:00

i looked up my prof who taught me 3 semesters ago. i needed a letter of recommendation from her.

apparently, in her opinion, i'm a confident woman who loves school, passionate and excited about things im doing and gonna do. HAHA. that's like the biggest joke, but of course, i don't mind seeing them in the letter. OH, and she said i lost weight! hahahahah. this isn't true either.

dragonboat mishap in penang! how tragic. =(

2010-01-14T23:33:00.000+08:00

so you simply ignore me when my help is not required anymore?? boohoo. you should at least let me know. =(

2010-01-13T15:12:00.002+08:00

this sem is gonna be tough. of 5 modules, 3 are open book. i didnt really do well for the previous few open book exams.. =( on a positive note, lectures are webcasted =)

time to buy textbooks!

2010-01-05T10:18:00.002+08:00

so, i remembered the last round when we were there. you showed me around, pointed out to me ur fave grounds and ur fave food. we were there for your brother, but i was alone for mine.

well, because things are different now, i should start the year afresh. what should be forgotten, will have to be. Afterall, i've pulled through the past year, which was extremely painful in every sense.. so much of heartaches and so much of tears.

thankfully, there was someone there to turn all grey skies blue.

and i know, 2010 is gonna be a great year, especially so for my family. whatever it is, i hope everyone's happy. That includes my love and closest friends too. hmm lastly, i finally have the courage to blog about such stuff openly. (=

2010-01-04T19:11:00.004+08:00

so last saturday, I WENT TO THE ZOO! (:

what a way to start the brand new year - visiting my relatives-to-be.
and zookeepers, pls shower my dear friends more often. they stink.

anyway, randy's gone to tekong! =( today was my 2nd time there and i thought of you. why.

hmm lemme blog again later.

2010-01-01T12:51:00.002+08:00

whattheheck. it's 2010 alr!
i dont feel old but i think my brain is!
cant seem to rmb things/find my things. omgosh.
so i got myself an organiser and now i gotta remind myself to use it. haha.

hope everyone had a memorable 2009 and countdown! well, mine sucked.
whatever.
ive managed to convince myself that its fine not to be with the person you love most on this special day, cause every other days are just as special. SO, AND THAT MEANS, IF I FORGOT BOUT UR BIRTHDAY/VDAY/XMAS OR WHATSOEVER, I CAN MAKE IT UP ON OTHER DAYS! XD
cheers to a super exciting year ahead. it definitely gonna be.

2009-12-28T12:56:00.002+08:00

FOOD SLEEP ME TV
SLEEP FOOD ME TV
ME FOOD SLEEP TV
SLEEP ME FOOD TV

.
.
.

and all the other permutations.

2009-12-07T10:21:00.000+08:00

overextended friendliness

share the love?

2009-12-06T15:44:00.002+08:00

sometimes, it doesnt benefit you for doing too much.
some just aint worth the effort.
some just dont deserve it.
cause what goes in doesnt equate to what comes out.
cause whatever makes you happy hurts you most.

this is just..the inconvenient truth

-

2009-11-02T23:46:00.002+08:00

SO DO I SAY GOODBYE?

on a side note, happy birthday.

2009-10-18T22:44:00.003+08:00

=( communication, is the problem.

and will always be.

2009-10-11T12:11:00.002+08:00

yesterday was a horrible-terrible day for me. touch was cancelled and i was on my way to meet ms abc for breaky. she was late, as expected, and had to leave me for pollypockets damnit. so, i thot maybe i shud just wait for J to get out of bed but oh well, he didnt make it. disappointedly, i made my way home. it was such bad timing when D buzzed me. i refused to make my way back to the east. so did S! i figured that i was just v unlucky and these people just couldnt wake up earlier. the rest of the day wasnt any better cos i was in pain the whole time which had been the case for the last few days (no its not menses) and i seriously hope for a new stomach.

2009-10-07T23:55:00.002+08:00

sometimes. you just wanna bring me down. you make me feel weak, inferior and super duper lousy bout alot of things, ultimately myself. i think thats what you think of me. like seriously. maybe everything you said is true. and maybe, i will hate myself.

2009-10-03T10:27:00.002+08:00

shyt. mood has been erratic these days.
1. Busy with midterms, projects and whatnot. all the shyt are piling up really fast! Having mentioned that, i think i shyt alot these days. hahah. J calls me an alien, whattheheck.
2. Oh. the kid is going for psle soon. HA. im so glad, excited but not nervous for her. she shud get it over soon lah walaoeh; her misery is contagious.
3. So much planning/coordinating to do. if you realised how unorganized im. and i hate following procedures. but i have to! SEP SEP SEP SEP SEP SEP SEP SEP.
4. D is too free these days and that shud explain why he's always there to talkcock with me. and usually, we do hypothetical qns. cos they are brainless, hilarious and scare the shyt out of you.
5. And as always, Y. time. distance. space. so many constraints. JUST GIVE ME A BIG HEART. and i will adapt.
6. Fk. im rarely so wordy.

2009-09-28T17:16:00.002+08:00

okay.

im not EVIL! im not a PROBLEM!

tell me and i will learn how to be nice.

2009-09-24T01:14:00.002+08:00

i forgot the userID and password. i have no access to that anymore. such shyt happens when you have too many accounts and to make things worse, too many different passwords. well at least, i still remember that it actu existed.

2009-08-25T23:45:00.001+08:00

is the end. gonna be. a new beginning?

hi midnight.

2009-08-13T12:31:00.002+08:00

dead tired.

_

2009-08-08T11:11:00.002+08:00

of all silly things, yesterday's was the most horrible&terrible experience ever. the journey from ECP to home didnt seem to end and my legs were weak like felly's jelly. ;) I was glad and really thankful to get home safe and sound. THANKYOU. "Last night I was dreaming I was locked in a prison cell..." is still ringin' in my head

2009-08-07T15:23:00.002+08:00

its wonderful becos its simple.
its simple bcos its already wonderful.

so basically, its simply wonderful and im contented. thank you, thank you.
(: (:

2009-08-05T11:35:00.002+08:00

when all that was left,

heartbreaks,

broken memories,

and maybe regrets,

you never stop loving..

and there was always that

moment of truth

...
the moment when you were alone the next day... the moment when you were alone with the memories.

2009-07-20T19:44:00.002+08:00

today. just when i thot i was gonna be late. and i swear i wasnt speeding. other than moving at 80 when the speed limit was 60 (along upper bukit timah road, and like since when?!) so i bet i was caught by the cop on top. totally depressed. i was 10 min late, and everyone else was later. i had to whine/complain/yell/bitch to everyone bout the incident. yes, i felt a teeny bit better after that. hah. then. HC had to bore us with the boring stuff duing meeting which i felt was a total waste of time. so val, yush and i decided to sneak off for a toilet break, well, we ended up at yih and had subway before heading back to clubroom. hah.
okay. im just v bored and have nth interesting to talk about. but it seems like the week ahead will be packed with events!
=)club =)bowtie =)spa =)val's 20th =)chalet @ sentosaI.
=)SCpartII =)sushi buffet =)club =)darryl's 21st.
=)YOGI !!!

2009-07-15T13:58:00.002+08:00

because my 9am breaky date didnt work out (WHERE WERE YOU BITCH?!), i decided to sleep in. ive nothing to blog about actually.. im just feeling bored and restless. and so, i thot i should make plans!

1)meet up with the birthday girl/woman - misstanpeihee. oh, and find her a pressie.
2)meet jessie to pass her the shorts.
3)meet twin for a swim and catch up again.
4)meet the slobs! we really gotta celebrate the 3 guys birthdays.
5)go to the zoo this weekend, if its still on. good weather pls.
6)fly kite! maybe we can bring the kids too?
7)think about the next trip. HKTW? BKK-phuket? HAHAHA.
8)standchart! opens tmr! which reminds me..
9)wendy's birthday is tmr too! OMGOSHHHH.
moving on to the boring stuff..
9)MPE.
10)read up on SEP.
11)check on my tuition kiddos.
shud be all, for now.

2009-07-14T12:40:00.002+08:00

so, i'm back!
ive yet to figure out why is it called the land of smiles.
anyway.
shopping = madness!
the art of bargaining.
im satisfied with my loot. 24 tops, 8 dresses and 12 bottoms (:
2 days to comb the whole of platinum mall.
1.5 days to cover chatuchak.
feasting = binge eating!
PADTHAI is love.
and i had a lot of waffles i dunno why.
on top of that. coconuts, seafood, mango sticky rice, A&W.
a tower of singha w love! [5 10 9 9 multiple] lol XD
foot massage, body massage.
yes, its a must.

and i love you so. (:

2009-07-07T17:51:00.002+08:00

im sorry, social responsibility doesnt work for me. and how do you explain if the entire AKK house is mambo-ing tmr night? whatever it is, gimme good health till sunday.

things in mind:
-dy's concert at esplanade
-check mom's return flight no.
-start packing for trip
-settle my tuition kids
-check mail
-dress my wound so that i wont scratch it
-dinner tonight? (i havent had homecooked food for 1.5weeks. =[)

-ok, wash the clothes..rawrrrrrrrr.

2009-07-03T14:01:00.002+08:00

sports camp's suspended.

i broke my head.

i got burned by a bike.

im home quarantined.

still, it was fun. well done TIAO ZUI (also PIA ZUI and KUA ZUI)

2009-06-27T15:09:00.001+08:00

i cant sit still
i cant sit still
i cant sit still

shud i go? RAWRRRRRR

DREAMS

2009-06-24T16:51:00.002+08:00

i've been dreaming a lot these days. those you get while sleeping, i mean. more often than not, i get those really crappy or even scary ones, and secretly hope that someone's there when i get up during the unearthly hour. it's so real at times, and that's because i'm always part of the dreams. HA. i'll probably scare myself to death one day. then again, i'm proud of my own imagination.

some(other)times, EMO-DUMBO acts up and i tear in my sleep. Recalling the past, of certain things, certain people, gets me really emo. Worst of all, it's totally beyond my control. HA. the power of dreams. It digs up things that you refuse to think about when you are sane, things which you wanna avoid so much.

having said all that, i feel like sleeping NOW. bring me to the other world (:

post #500

2009-06-23T14:33:00.002+08:00

yoohoo to post #500!

YES ITS ME. IM EMO-DUMBO.

post #499

2009-06-22T16:49:00.002+08:00

swim SWIM! and i feel the pressure in the head. on a side note, its good to catch up with twin. (: i dun mind swimming everyday actually. HAHA.
missed DPD kyn's bd celeb, missed PD hc's bd celeb..OH WELL. i've seen enough of them! 1 more week and its hell..lotsa fun. Bee will finally be out of the weekend DB trg, so it means more time. And BKK! wahah, so much to look fwd to. (:
then again when july comes, it means aug will come soon too. I DONT WANNA GO BACK TO SCHOOL. :(

I still dun wish to have kids. they can be really annoying.

2009-05-25T19:39:00.002+08:00

pre pre camp starts tmr.
pre camp, next week.
actual camp in a months time.

got hold of a new toy from the IT fair last night. (:
will put it to good use during pre pre camp.

yes, what's your limit?

2009-05-21T21:50:00.002+08:00

blog time (: since its taking forever to upload videos on facebook..rawr! no choice since GOOD THINGS MUST SHARE and yeah, the videos are damn hilarious. gawd. im on standby mode alr. i believe, its the sun that kills brain cells and causes one to stop functioning properly. on a side note, i still prefer short hair. Blame the weather!

okay videos are up! GO WATCH THEM NOW!!

done with the 21st

2009-05-20T19:51:00.002+08:00

2 decades down. im officially an adult. 21 is really old.. at least im not the only one who thinks so. i should start thinking like an adult, and behave like one. fortunately, i have been able to hide it (the childish side) well. =)

the birthday party was okay i guess. i duno, i was too busy running around. i felt like an event organiser more than the star of the night. oh well obviously it wasnt me, it was RANDY'S BIG DAY! hahahah he was crowned and dunked thereafter. for us, the celebration only began when we headed to bedok 85 for supper - the usual (chix wings, satay & bakchormee feast).

unwrapping gifts was the best part actually. HAHAHA. i conclude that randy's friends are really thotful, and my friends are just loaded with $$. maybe it's the AGE thing.

going in CIRCLES, will i end up back at SQUARE one?

2009-05-08T20:24:00.002+08:00

ARGHHHHHHH..

done with exams. done with 2 sems in nus!

im left with 1 week to plan for my birthday! 1 week to come up with the guest list. 1 week to look for a caterer. 1 week to come up with some games etc. sighhhhh =(
YOU were supposed to help me with the planning, but where were you! now that everything's so last min, i dont feel like having it anymore! so what if it's the 21st? so what if it's once-in-a-lifetime? =(

2009-04-18T22:01:00.001+08:00

IF I COULD TURN BACK TIME... ... ... ...

IF YOU TELL ME ITS ALL NOT TOO LATE... ... ... ...

2009-04-16T00:18:00.002+08:00

this has to stop;
i will learn to say goodbye

post #492

2009-03-30T17:19:00.002+08:00

WOOTS.

12-8pm PROJECT MEETING. RAWRRRR

i shouldnt be feeling like this. it contradicts.
even in my dreams.
the water. no matter how hard i tried. i couldnt stop it from seeping through the palms of my hands.

2009-02-27T21:18:00.003+08:00

feb is coming to an end. time really flies. i guess i have been dreaming half the time, or more than that. everything's moving so damn fast that i cant keep up. or maybe, i never bother to.
i dont see the need to impress anyone. neither do i need you to impress me. so i'm saying that again, i'm okay being alone.

song of the day - <天天想你>

2009-02-04T21:30:00.002+08:00

been busy! geez, it's been pretty exciting being involved in the sports camp councillor recuitment drive. oh yes, if i haven already mentioned, i've made it into the sports camp comm! :))

anyways! it's really sucha small world after all. hah. this friend of mine, someone i know for 1 whole sem, is actually the girlfriend of my junior. and this super cute junior has been fooled by my cousin for as long as a year or maybe more than that. hahahahahahah. man, we are all linked somehow. =)

wed sucks, but with your blessings, i believe, it will end fast. (:

2009-01-29T16:59:00.002+08:00

it's a day i don't wish to be out.

i wanna stay home and watch tennis, tennis and tennis.. even though watching federer can be really agonizing. boo.

im lazy to go to school actually. the modules are boring and im totally clueless bout whats going on in lecs. still, im glad that tuts have yet to begin.

these days of visiting have made me really thankful for all that i already have. i have never said this in my life and i'm going to say it now - I HAVE THE BEST PARENTS IN THE WORLD. that's because, i have learnt to count my blessings, like doubly hard. =)
when i was 12, i asked for a pair of skates and my dad got them for me.
when i was 14, i asked for a piano. my mom agreed.
when i was 17, i asked for a laptop..and tada! it appeared in my room days after.
when i was 20, i asked for a car. (okay, under the pressure of my bro!) my mom gave in and got us one.
ok, and many more things i cant and don't wish to remember. it just makes me feel guilty. oh wait, and the love and care that have always been there i ought to mention.
there's nothing more i can ask for.

2009-01-28T10:52:00.008+08:00

my sweet lunar new year (PART I) -

2009-01-25T11:01:00.002+08:00

i viewed, i wondered, but i was no where close to decoding.

2009-01-24T03:16:00.002+08:00

Touch Me All Night Long - ok who sang this??

this is the song stuck in my head for now. gosh.
and i always hear it on class95, and at times glenn ong will sing along.
ugh, get it out of my head!

so now, what am i waiting for?

entry #485

2009-01-21T19:49:00.002+08:00

oh god.

please get me out of this, because i cant bring myself to...
this is terrible..
i'm leaving it all in your hands now.

2009-01-15T18:18:00.005+08:00

*ARE YOU GOING TO FINISH STRONG?*

pls watch, it's definitely worth the time.

2009-01-13T22:33:00.004+08:00

SELF-DISCIPLINE.

that is all i need.

2009-01-12T16:37:00.003+08:00

kenny got into an accident yesterday. this girl, his schoolmate, kissed him in the a** and promised to pay for the damages. and so, we didnt file a report this time. i wonder if suayness is contagious like disease, passing from me to my bro. or maybe, the car is jinxed. 2 accidents in a week, how do you explain that! its keeping my dad AND ME very busy because we have to get the car serviced. And that means traveling from one workshop to another, asking for quotations, and making sure that they have the parts we need. To make things worse, we have to drive the fugly car with p-plates! omg. pls let it be april soon!

bidding for lectures has gone well. as for now, school's on wed thur and fri. i pray that balloting for tutorials will turn out fine too, then everything will be perfect! [3DAY WEEK PLS] oh, and my dad said he will send me to school so that i dont have to buy season parking. come to think of it, it isnt a bad idea. i will get to school safely, at least.

BMI =19.8! :D

2009-01-10T18:03:00.002+08:00

took the jetfoil to tekong yesterday.
avon's enlistment. and i can nv forget that gloomy face of his, hahah.
tekong was boring! once is enough, i will nv wanna go there again.

2009-01-09T10:07:00.003+08:00

the kids wanna give up their huskies.
4months and 8months. so they are actually still in the puppy stage despite the fact that they are quite huge already. hahah.
i'd have adopted them if i could. huskies are pretty, lor..even though they look much like wolves. not that i have seen one in my life.
maybe i should take pictures of the huskies, and the kids as well. =)

2009-01-07T12:10:00.002+08:00

shyt. we got into an accident at the newton roundabout.
thank god no one was hurt.
thank god my brother's car looks ok (just some screechy noise) despite getting knocked into.
thank god my mom and dad weren't angry bout it.

lesson learnt:
NEVER NEVER admit that you're in the wrong.

it's a damn expensive lesson lah!